Oh my god i dont know what to do. i came here first because i know that anyone who would say anything to me ?

doesnt know me. if that made sense. hard to make sense right now. i just took like 20 pee tests. im pregnant. myex boyfriend swore i wouldnt get pregnant. god, i knew this would happen. both my cousins got pregnant too. im only 16. what am i supposed to do? how do i tell my mom and dad? theyll never pay for me to go to college now. sh*t sh*t sh*t. i was gonna be a business owner, take over fam business and wear pretty pencil skirts and have guys look at me and wish they had me and now im gonna be a mom. i hate myex boyfriend, its his fault. i'll bet his truck wasn't even broken down. we were on our way home and suddenly his car stopped and it wouldnt start so we laid in the bed of the truck and he had some blankets back there and it was really hot because its hot here and he took off his pants and laid by me and then he just started lifting up my shirt. ive been with him with my shirt off before so i just let him and then pretty soon...well you know. and my parents didnt even miss me that night it was like 2 or 3 months ago. i knew this would happen this always happens to people on their first time. can i stay in school? what do i do? should i abort? i always thought that was bad but now i know the pressure the girls feel and i know how appealing that way could be. my current bf is gonna kill me, i refused to sleep with him last week and now im knocked up. ****. what do i do? comfort me please. dont be mean. damn it why did i open my legs?